8.27.09 The unknown.

Waiting. Nothing is more anxiety provoking than uncertainty. For someone who enjoys spontaneity, I sure am uncomfortable with the unknown. Why? I don’t actually want to know my future. Surprises are what it’s all about, but I sure would like to know if I got this job.

I like to be organized, scheduled, and budgeted. But then again I think there is a big difference between being planned and being prepared. The latter still allows room for change and flexibility.

It is a constant battle within my heart and mind. I’m working hard to find that balance between living in the moment and being prepared. Appreciate the now. Take time to stop and see the beauty that surrounds us. Smell the roses.



I want to know and I hate waiting, but for now I am going to try to enjoy the present. The future comes soon enough.